I miss it and I want it back, but also I made really STUPID decisions and I regret them every time I think about last night. The line was really long for merch and so I didn’t wait in it, but now I am left without a souvenir to remind me how much I loved it. And most importantly, I was stubborn and selfish and wouldn’t settle for getting Roach to Lauren indirectly, and in the end she didn’t get it at all. I’m really just kicking myself for not throwing it on stage, or giving it to the bus driver when he came over and talked to us. I’m just really an idiot, and I don’t want to have to live with my stupid decisions.